it's fucking scary to not know what you want. and im blessed.... in a way.... that people keep reminding me of how 'magical' it is to do what i am doing rn and hopefully in the future. :/

but yea, at times im confused too.

idk.
idk if this is rly waht i want or i just keep telling myself that i want it.. ?

i guess no one rly rly knows what they want, they just keep doing and keep telling themselves that they have... "passion in it" i guess.

i guess that's how it is.

signing off.

some days i feel like one lifetime just isn't enough and some days i feel like it's just too much