:( could also really use a best friend rn

sometimes i feel like i just went into this too quick and did not have enough time to sort out my thoughts
because rn i feel stuck.
i have no direction
no aim
no motivation
i dont know what im working for anymore

I wrote a post about #malaysianaccentstruggles a while ago and came across this post that a singaporean friend who's also studying in australia shared.

http://yaledailynews.com/blog/2016/10/28/talk-dirty-to-me-in-another-accent/

and after reading this, i have come to a conclusion (which i never did before lel): never ever judge someone by their accents. NEVER. no matter how 'fake' or 'phoney' they might sound to you.

I hate worrying about so many fucking things that don't even matter .
I hate how sometimes I don't even know WHAT's making me so worried.
I hate being so unproductive because I worry too much.
and then
I hate how incompetent I am at so many fucking things.
I hate knowing that I can actually change the way I live my life right now but still not doing anything about it.
I hate being such a disappointment.
I hate feeling so trapped in my fucking life.
I hate knowing that there are so many people out there who have it way worse than I do and are still so positive about things.
I hate knowing that I don't deserve to worry.
I hate knowing that I'm still somehow privileged.
I hate that despite knowing that, I still fucking worry.
I hate it.

Funny the day you born that's really your death sentence 

"do you ever ask yourself if maybe the land had never belonged to any of us but instead we belong to the land"