"긴 햇빛 속에 있다 보면 잊혀질 줄 알았어요
눈이 멀진 몰랐어요
긴 겨울 속에 있다 보면 무뎌질 줄 알았어요
슬픔만이 흩날려요
I thought I'd forget if I stayed in the sun
I didn't know I'd go blind
I thought I'd go numb if I remained in the long winter
only sadness scatters"
Some think too much before making a decision, while some just don't think at all. And I, without a doubt happen to fall into the former category.
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But really, I don't know how I feel about my decision right now. Am I happy? Am I disappointed? I'm confused. I feel so emotionally detached that sometimes I don't know how to react to some situations.I used to be dubbed as the bubbly girl with thousands of 'free-flowing' expressions but now, I hide like a hermit. Occasionally, I'll peek out from underneath my imaginary shell, but I get tired fast. I retract. I hide.
I'm not even sure why I get tired so easily these days, I don't even know what I'm tired of. But I just am exhausted.
I'm sorry, people. Sorry for not being able to trust. Sorry for hiding. Sorry for not being myself.
Or maybe, this is me. This is me.
And who are those people I'm referring to anyway?
